Back then when we were young and after I'd had a lover or two I wasn't looking for a man at all but if I were I'd want one Who didn't want to fuck me Like looking for an honest man in college or a bar or a truck stop
But you found the glance with slit eye and the slow slide down Found your body of great richness and utility anywhere like The wall of the bar just outside the back door, the bushes plumped Like pillows for your hips. Strange men, old friends, ex lovers, All comers. You fascinated me so unlike were we
I was the girl they all wanted to fuck You were the woman who fucked them all Married with children, it didn't change a thing You were the one expelled from the campus coffee shop Obscene language, solicitation and other outrages and I Worshipped you. Let me live with you. I'll watch the children, I'll wash the dishes, I'll be the nanny I'll be the bait and then we'll switch
You read the Tarot Cards and you were the Queen of Cups. You drew the The Tower reversed, bodies flying through the air You insisted I was only a Page. I'd had no children. I would always Be a page, a child, childless, no matter what my age. A Page I drew the Devil upright and the Hierophant reversed
For a costume party you would go as Medusa, and knew Enough to call me Persephone. I was that girl, the mere Page Carried to the underworld by Hades, another name for Daddy (I told no one your real identity, Daddy, King of the Underworld) And yet the Queen of Cups knew the ghost of you in the circles Under my troubled eyes too damn pretty to really be seen. Ice girl Holding The Devil's hand wearing a well pressed black dress The Page of Swords in love with the Queen of Cups I still am.